I seriously cannot wait to graduate (hopefully if I pass) so I can find a therapist and a doctor near Ryan and get on medication because I am swinging between being suicidal and then being angry as fuck and wanting to punch shit and then being hyper and wanting to do twelve hundred things at once and back and forth.
Also I have my physical tomorrow at 10 and I am going to seriously just be like “I’M NOT DYING AM I” over and over in pure terror.